Wednesday, April 16, 2008


i dreamt of grandma two nights ago..we went on a holiday tog..and fact is, ive nv been on a holiday with her..no regrets or anything, just a pity..i dont think i ever regretted not spending more time with her..all along it was a sense of i wish she was still around..when she fell ill i hoped she would recover..just to see me graduate in a years' time..that was my grandpa's wish..then i hoped she cound get well so that she can see me turn 21 and in time to come see me marry..but i guess that's the way life is..no too bads, no such a pity, somethings just happen the way they do and somethings just dont happen..

of all times, im blogging now..and its kind of totally random..i think i get pretty random during exam prep period cos im just stuck at home all day, with books, coffee, lappie and me..and online shopping..haha. exams pls be over!

all the best for exams everyone!


-i'm at the end of the rainbow
23:42

Thursday, February 14, 2008


happy valentines' day kaihong! love yu(:


-i'm at the end of the rainbow
00:00

Saturday, December 29, 2007


each time i visit my blog and see the same page over and over again, i ask myself why i managed to let my blog stagnate for so long..one entire sem..was i that busy? maybe..but i think its cos i tend to blog abt happy stuff..not that nth happy has happened this sem but i guess more of the opposite have happened..and each time i do get the urge to blog..these issues complicate my thoughts and i just cannot seem to put what i initially intended to express into words..even words fail me..now i wonder how i sustained myself this sem if even words have failed me..haha.

people say good things will come after a series of misfortunes or ill luck..i would love to believe this saying. i would love to regain the courage and faith to wish for sth..

i know one should nv be self-centered, shld nv be disillusioned by one's problems and worries such that one thinks his/her problems are the greatest. That would be grossly small-minded. One should not brood over his/her misfortunes and fail to realise how insignificant and minute one's problems may be once compared with that of others. But in small singapore, i think tts what ppl tend to do. or maybe not just in small singapore. shrugs. ok what has this gotta do with our country i wonder..im just drifting..see what i mean by i just lose the ability to connect my thoughts when things begin to clog up in my puny brain.

So, i choose not to complain and rant abt what has happened to me and the ppl arnd me..i wish..i just wish i can find the faith i used to have in myself, in everything..the optimism that used to accompany my thoughts. i dont even dare wish for anything in specific or anything real anymore. I'm afraid of being disappointed even just for the last few days of 2007.

ok now i sound like an attention-seeking emo crap. eergh. that is why i nv really blog abt unhappy stuff. rarrh.

sometimes i look back and gosh, it still feels so surreal..her name and number is still in my speed dial..i can still remember so vividly how she would sit in her chair, her smile, her voice..

i shall try to organise my pics and post up some pics of this second half of the year..how time flies..2008 is beckoning..whether it is for the better or worse..

oh yes, alvin and the chipmunks are utterly adorable..pls catch the movie..

and kh can drive now! woots!

hope everyone had a great yuletide season and is all set to usher in the new year! Cheers!


-i'm at the end of the rainbow
00:21

Friday, December 07, 2007


It indeed hasnt been a very good start to my holidays and well, my loved ones and myself have had rather heavy hearts of late..so with the season of giving just round the corner..why not spread some love this festive season to bring some warmth to others and live the true spirit and meaning of christmas..I am very proud of kh for making such an effort for his good friend, Wei Cheng..pls read on about a worthy cause kh is initiating..

Dear Netizens,

My name is Kai Hong, a close friend and dragon boat team-mate of the late Wei Cheng. I am sure by now, you have heard of the tragic accident in Cambodia 3 weeks ago.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/314549/1/.html

I am honored to have had the opportunity to row with Wei Cheng in both SAFSA as well as the National Team. He was a dedicated paddler who worked hard to reach his goals. This eventually earned him a place in the National squad, despite his lack of prior experience in the sport.

While participating actively in dragonboat, Wei Cheng dedicated much of his remaining time to giving tuition in order to contribute to the family's income. From a tender age, Wei Cheng and his brother, Wei You, have been raised single handedly by their mother, who is currently sourcing for a job with the help of relatives. Wei You recently re-took his 'O' Levels and is hoping to enter a local Polytechnic with his grades. He will be working part-time to bear some of the family's financial burden, which his brother had so painstakingly bourne these few years.

I understand that most of you have probably attended the recent wake and have already given "white money" to the family. However, with the "season of giving" just around the corner, I'm trying to arrange for a second round of donations for the family, hoping to offer what aid we can to help mother and son tide over this extremely difficult time. No obligations here. If you feel that you have given as much help as you could, it is ok.

After some discussions with Wei Cheng's cousin, we have jointly decided that cheques would be the most efficient method of facilitating these donations. Even if you are unable to write a cheque, I hope you can approach your parents and see if they would like to extend their help in this. My team-mates and I are organising this to provide an avenue for those who wish to extend their aid to the Chee family, but do not know where and how.

You will have my assurance that all donations will be documented, and that the FULL proceeds will be handed to Mdm Chee. We are doing this for we believe that Wei Cheng, being the filial son that he was, would not want his brother and mother to have to bear the weight of his departure.

For those who would want to donate a substantial amount to the family, please either reply to this message,contact me at
kee_heng@hotmail.com or 96461072. Details on how to donate will be disclosed to you privately. I hope to be able to collect all donations during the 3rd week of this month, which is 17th to 22nd December 2007.

I'm not sure of the response to this, but I thank you for reading this, and hope we can all do our part to help the family.

Yours Sincerely,Chian Kai Hong


-i'm at the end of the rainbow
22:40

Saturday, December 01, 2007


word of the month..it begins with c!

no, not christmas..

..cherish(:


-i'm at the end of the rainbow
21:39

Sunday, October 21, 2007


woah..time to clear the cobwebs in here! haha.

well well, happening 2months ive had and what do yu know? exams are here in less than a month..yet again..sad-ded.

too many things happened and i cant possibly update abt everything here..as such, i will not be updating at all since it just sucks to only know some and not the rest doesnt it! haha what a convenient excuse for my laziness..

anw, i applaud myself for making a change! haha. what change i shall not say yet..soon soon(: its a nice change tho..good change..i like! heh.


-i'm at the end of the rainbow
02:21

Friday, August 10, 2007


some pics from gatherings and outings i recently had during the last week of hols!
met up with the mg girls at myra's house..turn out was GOOD and saw alot of ppl i had nv seen since dunno when! haha. played taboo again..haha. seems like we keep playing that game..then manda and i tried to teach them the tuki tuki foc game but for some reason it just cldnt be played properly with them..haha. but it was a great laughing session..turned out so hilarious the way we played the game..

carnage outing to sentosa on sun! BUT i was the only lireal person there..the rest all pangseh! but it was still fun nonetheless..played vball for quite awhile..first time i actually got to play in a beach vball court..den played ultimate frisbee and eventually nua-ed under the shade and played cards..haha. fuN!(:


random shots!


big group shots!

oh yes! carnage freshie tay weiyang has been nominated for the hey! gorgeous show on channel u! everyone pls go vote for mr smiley face! he's from hc too so hwa chongians reading this pls go support him too(:

http://u.mediacorptv.com/hey/

search for him under NTU!(: go go go!



-i'm at the end of the rainbow
14:44



i feel old! finally hit the big 2 on tues..haha. IM 20!!! BUT got diagnosed with THE pox on mon..first day of school..heh. unfortunate but i guess i can be grateful it came at such a time..give me a good rest before gg back to sch again as i nv really got any proper rest dancing throughout the hols..a good time to reorganize my life before getting my life back on track to begin the semester..and its the first week of sch not as many lessons so i guess im lucky to get it now before the workload starts piling up..however, just afraid cant catch up after missing a week of dance..esp the finale..its worrying me alot now..pat has done blocking and abt 3min plus of the finale..dunno if i'll still get to do it..and to do it i will definitely hafta go for prac on thurs but tts the night of welcome tea..oh man..i dunno how to make a decision between the two..i have a greater responsibility to fufill towards iic since im part of the main comm but ohman..confused!

OK back to happier stuff..tho i had to be confined this bday..never felt more loved by the ppl arnd me..indeed an unforgettable bday..


dear surprised me close to at midnight by calling me asking me to look out of my window..haha. i saw the big 20 he had did with light sticks immediately then he was like oh shit..haha. he wanted me to see him standing at the bball courts waving the lightsticks in his hand..asked me to come down..so as such..i went towards bball courts right away cos i thought i was suppose to go towards him..but actually i was suppose to follow the lightsticks at the landscape garden which were suppose to lead me to the big 20 where my present was..but eventually of course i went to the 20 cos dear was nowhere in sight..and i found a fossil paper bag there! dear bought fossil watch for me!!!!(: didnt believe he would really buy..he said maybe he'll buy for me when we walked into the fossil shop that day then he asked me which one i liked..been wanting a fossil watch for so long and i didnt believe him when he said he'll buy for me! wahahha.so happy! THANKS DEAR!(: dear came over to my house the next day which was the day of my bday to accompany me at home..long time since dear and i spent such time tog..dear really v nice to me throughout this period im confined at home..and he knows im v worried abt having scars and all the spots appearing on my body and face..esp those few pock marks on my face..but he always listens to my complains and reassures me..nv getting irritated by me or wad..very grateful i have this boy with me..BEAMS(:

present from dear!(: LOVE IT!

and that wasnt the end of the night! my fav babes from HAGS paid me a midnight visit too! with a choc and cheese cake from tcc!(: surprised me right at my doorstep..abby called me saying she was at my door..and i didnt believe her cos like they didnt know my exact address wad..but really she was outside when i looked thru the peephole..but when i opened the door..even huan and germ popped out! sang bday song for me with the cake in their hands..first time my frens have done a midnight surprise for me..like appearing at my doorstep at the stroke of midnight with a cake and bday song! and that was exactly wad happened! i so happy and touched..tho i cldnt eat the cake but i really appreciate it babes! LOVE YU BABES SO MUCH!!!(:

DEAR! HAGS! yu guys have no idea how yu made my day!(:

and of course, thank yu everybody else for your well wishes..thank you all for remembering..it really made my bday so much more enjoyable..esp when i was stuck at home..im being an obedient girl recuperating at home and abstaining from food im not supposed to eat..hope i'll recover real quick and i'll be back in action in no time!(:



-i'm at the end of the rainbow
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