im back..thanks everyone for your concern..im fine!everyone has their bad days huh? anw im down with blocked/running nose..i cant figure which one cos sometimes its running..sometimes its blocked..haha. at the moment its both. hee..oh wells, feels sucky to not have dear arnd when im feeling awful and ill..anw dear will be gg for sit test tmr in jungle..another 3days2nights in jungle..yea its a test where they sit in the jungle and see who can sit and keep still for the longest time cos there's so many insects and flying creatures and mud all arnd in the jungle so its a test of endurance..haha yea right..its act situation test i think to see how they'll react given diff situations to test their wit, leadership and the way they do things i guess..yupp dear says its quite a deciding factor as to whether a soldier is fit to go command school or not..meanwhile i hafta work on abolishing all thots in dear's mind of signing onto navy..someone pls help me knock some sense into him that its never good to tie urself down with a bond with saf now..or any gov agencies..that's wad i think la..i sound like oppostition supporter..haha. will miss dear alot alot when he goes jungle..cannot talk for 3days..BLEAH. bmt almost over alr..2 more weekends and im still not exactly used to dear being away from me bookin in n out every wkend..tho i realise cos of this each split second we spend tog now really is quality time tog..which makes me very happy!(: i have gotten used to sending msges to dear n not gettin replies til v long later tho..haha.and it was our
2YEARS ANNIVERSARY on 18th may last thursday! BEAMS(:(:(:so glad we're still as loving as ever and that our love and care for each other has not faded over time..hope we'll only grow stronger and learn to cherish each other more cos i wasnt many more 2years yu hear me silly poot??heh.
anw work has been good..its fun to see how ice cream and sometimes yu as a scoopie have made people's day that much brighter!tho i must say i wont really crave for ice cream outside of work now that i see ice cream and taste a lil bit everyday..when i open new bulks of ice cream which happens everyday..haha. dun think i'll grow fat tho cos i dont eat much somehow looking at it makes yu full..haha. i eat more waffles tho..those yu screw up yu eat..haha. so far only maria has visited me! haha. she came with derek on my 2nd day of work! shunmun came lookin for jingmin but found me instead..haha. so far that's all la..dear still hasnt seen me at work yet..maybe during his block leave..yupp. fellow scoopies all v nice and friendly! and we're seniors after just a week cos a new batch was trained a week after us..which usually doesnt happen..haha. ive learnt to make cookies, brownies, muffins and decorate cakes w whipped cream..haha. and how to use an electric beater cos i dont have sucha device at home..heh. however, there are some ppl or maybe someone who's spoiling working environment and mood and team dynamics..apparently im not the only one who thinks so..means im not bein mean..but ya im startin to be able to tolerate that someone better cos i realise we dont have a choice cos we'll inevitably get our day of working w him/her..yupp. so just bitch amongst ouselves to release tension and relief stress sometimes la..haha. suppose to have batch14 scoopies dinner tmr but it seems no information on that yet so dunno if it will materialise..hope so! oh and meeting other scoopies on this job has indeed made me realise that singapore's really v small..this girl i waws working w frm cj has bf in ndu where jk is and her bf is close to dear's bunkmates..the ones whom dear's closest to summore!so..i better ji1 de2 cos wad goes arnd comes arnd..tho i havent really been a bad mean girl before this revelation..haha. not much of a revelation also la..heh.
having movie marathon with dear this sun when he books out! hopefully enuff time to watch 2movies-da vinci code and xmen!(: i think xmen's gonna be so exciting! (:(: cant wait to see dear and spend time with dear again..then it'll be down to 1 more weekend to dear's pop!!!!(: hope i can get tic frm someone in school2 to go for it since dear's parents will be taking both his tics..
ive been wanting to blog sth more meaningful, sth deeper, reflecting on things arnd me..but somehow my sick mind isnt functioning qutie well now..my brain is rotting..one thing i realise is that no matter how many times yu tell urself to cherish the ppl arnd yu, loved ones, friends..yu never seem to treasure them enuff and only when they're gone or gg somewhere faraway eg to study overseas..its then that yu suddenly miss them alot and start blaming urself for not spending more time with them..bleah. i must admit ive nv kept much contact with my friends that've gone overseas to study..sab, ruiwen, shihan..no doubt we still talk on msn sometimes..we're not as close anymore..soon maggot and alicia will be gg away..and guano too..i will make sure i keep in touch with these 3good friends of mine..that day when we said our byes to each other at kap after dance night..i waved to guano and felt a sudden tinge of sadness and told maria that i'll miss guano when she goes london..hmmm..hope that i really will be able to do what ive typed..i always tell dear that i treasure him too and times spent with him..but i think im not really treasuring him enuff either..life just passes by all too quickly..time slips away without us realising and precious moments are lost as we go abt our daily routines oblivious to surroundings and not taking a time to show our concern for ppl arnd us..we shld lean to walk slower..but i wonder how that's possible in singapore..walk slower and time catches up with us..however the moment we speed up we start to miss the little thigs in life that truly matter and never get to realise how beautiful life is..ironic huh? alright that's all for now..i need rest..take care everyone! (:
-i love yu.
-i'm at the end of the rainbow
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