im sick again..blocked nose and sore throat..made a trip to the clinic today to get some medicine..have been self-medicating the past few days..bleah i dont like it when im sick..seems like everytime i make a mental note a few days before that i shall go for dance whichever day..sth crops up and i'll end up not being able to go..wanted to go dance today but sick so decided to stay home and rest..yupp..
mg stayover confirmed 3-4july! im so excitedd!!! hope everyone will turn up havent seen everyone in a long time esp xueai!!! excited excited..looking forward to fri too cos dear gets to book out then! dear's not having a good time in camp..sigh.. i guess i understand how he's feeling and why but sometimes i dunno how to console him except try to make him laugh and cheer him up by doing stupid things and making funny sounds to amuse him..like yesterday typed this super long sms..actually many smses but i got gradually illogical after each msg i sent..was just trying to change dear's way of thinking and persuade him to look on the positive side..rather worried abt my baby..wanna see him badly..just clicked on the link to our blog and hearing the music, reading the last blog entry he typed for me..i was overwhelmed with emotions and sadness..miss him so much after being used to seeing him so often last two weeks..yesterday when i heard his voice over the phone for the first time since he booked in i was hit by a wave of emotions too..and i was sad hearing that he wasnt happy in camp..i so wanna hug him and tell him that everything will eventually work out fine and hope that it really does..
presently reading this book called the five people you meet in heaven..a rather short story almost done with it..but a powerful one and kinda gets one thinking..altho yea i console myself at times that everything happens for a reason tho we dont know wad the reason is..its all plan of a bigger plan that God has for us..that's wad i recently told dear too..but i suddenly wonder why cant the reason be made known to us..so that we can strive to live our purpose in life..and maybe our life will be more meaningful if we know our purpose and His plan for us..its a test of our faith maybe? that we entrust out lives to Him..that we know as long as He is in control everything will be fine?in the book the main character dies in an accident goes to heaven and meets five ppl who help him to understand his life on earth and reasons foe certain things happening so he'll look at it from a different perspective..so why couldnt the reason be made known to us when we're still alive? why wait till we're dead then help us understand our life?is that life's test for us?to see if we can stay strong and not be brought down by adversities but instead move on even more determined..another test? is life all abt tests? hmmm..
alrighty my tummy's growling..gonna have dinner now!
-i'm at the end of the rainbow
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