i feel old! finally hit the big 2 on tues..haha. IM 20!!! BUT got diagnosed with THE pox on mon..first day of school..heh. unfortunate but i guess i can be grateful it came at such a time..give me a good rest before gg back to sch again as i nv really got any proper rest dancing throughout the hols..a good time to reorganize my life before getting my life back on track to begin the semester..and its the first week of sch not as many lessons so i guess im lucky to get it now before the workload starts piling up..however, just afraid cant catch up after missing a week of dance..esp the finale..its worrying me alot now..pat has done blocking and abt 3min plus of the finale..dunno if i'll still get to do it..and to do it i will definitely hafta go for prac on thurs but tts the night of welcome tea..oh man..i dunno how to make a decision between the two..i have a greater responsibility to fufill towards iic since im part of the main comm but ohman..confused!

OK back to happier stuff..tho i had to be confined this bday..never felt more loved by the ppl arnd me..indeed an unforgettable bday..

dear surprised me close to at midnight by calling me asking me to look out of my window..haha. i saw the big 20 he had did with light sticks immediately then he was like oh shit..haha. he wanted me to see him standing at the bball courts waving the lightsticks in his hand..asked me to come down..so as such..i went towards bball courts right away cos i thought i was suppose to go towards him..but actually i was suppose to follow the lightsticks at the landscape garden which were suppose to lead me to the big 20 where my present was..but eventually of course i went to the 20 cos dear was nowhere in sight..and i found a fossil paper bag there! dear bought fossil watch for me!!!!(: didnt believe he would really buy..he said maybe he'll buy for me when we walked into the fossil shop that day then he asked me which one i liked..been wanting a fossil watch for so long and i didnt believe him when he said he'll buy for me! wahahha.so happy! THANKS DEAR!(: dear came over to my house the next day which was the day of my bday to accompany me at home..long time since dear and i spent such time tog..dear really v nice to me throughout this period im confined at home..and he knows im v worried abt having scars and all the spots appearing on my body and face..esp those few pock marks on my face..but he always listens to my complains and reassures me..nv getting irritated by me or wad..very grateful i have this boy with me..BEAMS(: