each time i visit my blog and see the same page over and over again, i ask myself why i managed to let my blog stagnate for so long..one entire sem..was i that busy? maybe..but i think its cos i tend to blog abt happy stuff..not that nth happy has happened this sem but i guess more of the opposite have happened..and each time i do get the urge to blog..these issues complicate my thoughts and i just cannot seem to put what i initially intended to express into words..even words fail me..now i wonder how i sustained myself this sem if even words have failed me..haha.
people say good things will come after a series of misfortunes or ill luck..i would love to believe this saying. i would love to regain the courage and faith to wish for sth..
i know one should nv be self-centered, shld nv be disillusioned by one's problems and worries such that one thinks his/her problems are the greatest. That would be grossly small-minded. One should not brood over his/her misfortunes and fail to realise how insignificant and minute one's problems may be once compared with that of others. But in small singapore, i think tts what ppl tend to do. or maybe not just in small singapore. shrugs. ok what has this gotta do with our country i wonder..im just drifting..see what i mean by i just lose the ability to connect my thoughts when things begin to clog up in my puny brain.
So, i choose not to complain and rant abt what has happened to me and the ppl arnd me..i wish..i just wish i can find the faith i used to have in myself, in everything..the optimism that used to accompany my thoughts. i dont even dare wish for anything in specific or anything real anymore. I'm afraid of being disappointed even just for the last few days of 2007.
ok now i sound like an attention-seeking emo crap. eergh. that is why i nv really blog abt unhappy stuff. rarrh.
sometimes i look back and gosh, it still feels so surreal..her name and number is still in my speed dial..i can still remember so vividly how she would sit in her chair, her smile, her voice..
i shall try to organise my pics and post up some pics of this second half of the year..how time flies..2008 is beckoning..whether it is for the better or worse..
oh yes, alvin and the chipmunks are utterly adorable..pls catch the movie..
and kh can drive now! woots!
hope everyone had a great yuletide season and is all set to usher in the new year! Cheers!
-i'm at the end of the rainbow
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